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I also believed that to get job in MNCs is good for overall good life.
But i couldn't get job into that. But i couldn't get it. I have searched for job around one year after graduation.
I have prepared for around one year but i get low score in all MBA exams. I spent around 30k on exams and form fees of colleges. I have spent 40k on coaching. At that time i can get admission by paying lacs in MBA colleges. I have joined 2 company.
In the second job they fire me because i had taken urgent medical leave after 2 weeks of joining. During these period I have also try to apply in banking jobs, government jobs, railway jobs.
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